Sunday, December 19, 2010

Spectator

19 December 2010

I'm not a competitor. I don't want to be one either. I just want to be a spectator.

Perhaps I think too much about being someone's (anyone's) competitor. I just don't like the feeling of me being competed.

I may have a spot on the top 10% of the cohort of 120 people. But I'm definitely not in the top 3 position to fight with anyone. So I shall sit aside during graduation and clap hard for those who are in those position. (:

Competition be it friendly or intentionally are not for me. Not my style either. I'm just me. (:

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Time off

14 December 2010

I'ven't been posting the past week since it has been filled up fully by all my assignments that I hardly had anytime to myself to sit and think. Other than assignments that are filling up all my time in the week, me being sick and hibernating took up my weekends too. Conclusion is, I have no time for myself at all.

I attended some A*STAR scholarship talk last wednesday. I feel so tempted to just hop onto a plane and fly off just like that asap. :/ Scholarship would take up 14 years of time until it ends. It's such a long time!

14 years down the road, I wonder what would I be doing. Apparently, if, just IF. I took up the scholarship, 14 years later, I'll be Dr KHOO. Brr... Sounds so weird to me. I can't imagine myself being called as DR Khoo in future.

One plus point to being a DR Khoo... It WILL NOT MATTER if I'm going to be a MS or MDM KHOO in future. :) [** 2 person should be able to understand this statement of mine**] :]
Perhaps for the sake of salutation, I might take up the scholarship. But hell no! 14 years of my future. I really need to sit and think it through properly and carefully.

US and UK university. Where should I choose? Or How should I choose? So far, I'm only browsing through NewCastle and Imperial. Hunting for other Uni out there. I hope I have time for myself this coming week. Shall stay hopeful on it.

Comments about quiz and tests so far:
Lab Quiz: It's like s**t from the Male Tutor but it should be okay for the other.
UOP CT: It's an easy paper as long as I have no careless mistakes made. :)
PCON CT: It's not as easy as the paper uploaded in blackboard at all. Brr... Besides I never like this module right from the start. So I don't want to comment.

I shall start planning my holidays to complete my assignments that had been piling up and yet have time for myself. It seems to be mission impossible. But what other choice do you have when you are a YR 3 student?

Shall be off!

*It's kinda hilarious that my sis and I are both counting down.
She's counting down 8 days to PSLE posting results whereas I counting down 80 days to 04 March 2011.

I can't wait for graduation to come.

Thursday, December 09, 2010

Time Check

Time Check: 0230 on 09 December 2010

I just finished my report which is due on 0900 on 09 December 2010.

All timing in 24 hours format.

Shall be off to bed! :D

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

Heros

I wonder what's wrong with my neighbourhoood these weeks. It's the third yellow canvas hanging around within the past 2 weeks.

Does this mean something? My neighbourhood is an old one. Rather true since the blocks here have been around for 20 odd years. It's definitely older than me since it's here before I was even born.

I hope there isn't anymore after this one. It's rather creepy for it to be continuous around the blocks. :/

My current mood on my pile of work is represented by this lyrics.

噢 如果超人会飞
那就让我在空中停一停歇
再次俯瞰这个世界
会让我觉得好一些

哦 拯救地球好累
虽然有些疲惫但我还是会
不要问我哭过了没
因为超人不能有眼泪

~周杰伦 - 超人不会飞


Now I know wad Jay Chow feels with everyone's expectations on him. I tried to find an english songs that depicts this meaning from my playlist. But apparently, they are almost ~60-75% clubbing songs, fast songs or 25-40% love songs.

This song below is probably the closest I can find in my playlist.

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade


~Corrinne May - Little Superhero Girl


Time for me to start sourcing for new english songs and update my playlist. I need more exposure to english songs in my playlist.

Shall be off being a hero again. (:


1 fact about hero is
-No one really know how a hero feels.

Monday, December 06, 2010

SIGH

Start of a busy week begins again. ):

Sunday, December 05, 2010

I can do it. (:

I don't believe that I won't be able to crap out 1200 words for my WISP assignment 1B. I still have 8 more hours to do so.

Yes, i can do it. Definitely.

Saturday, December 04, 2010

street idiot

First thing first!

HAPPY 22 BIRTHDAY TO POYI &
HAPPY 19 BIRTHDAY TO HONGMING!~

What a pity that we can't go out celebrate today. Next weekend shall be a make up for today! :)

Anyway, it rained almost the whole day today that there isn't much to do outdoors.

Today I realised that I'm a road idiot. I may know my way around with distinguish landmarks but I'm definitely not a street directory.

As I went jogging this evening, there's 2 people asking me for directions. It turns out to be, me telling them, I'm sorry, but I ain't sure where they are. :/
Seriously, staying here for so long and yet I don't know where the blocks are when someone is asking for directions. It's time to bang my head against the wall.

I should start recognising the block numbers around my neighbourhood.

Next time round when someone else ask for directions. I shall be able to tell them exactly where they are. Besides that, I can also be street smart as well. :D One day it will be useful when I drive. (: I'm sure of it.

Shall be praying for a nice weather tomorrow again.

Friday, December 03, 2010

distraction from facebook

This is bad. The cartoon characters on facebook is distracting me. So in other words, I have yet to progress very far since I last post just now. -.-

This time round, I shall exert self restraint on myself from checking on facebook and the cartoon character.

But seriously, the cartoons brought back many childhood memories. There's so many to name and so many are ancient. Haha.

Back to the battle.
1st round Assignment won over Felicia.

2nd round will be better! :]

Battle with assignments

Where is my motivation to complete my work?

Motivation, Motivation, will you please come back to my side right now?

Music shall keep me going on while doing my work. But I'm still hoping I'm motivated to finish everything on hand as soon as possible!

I wonder how I got a cut on my right hand fourth finger. Just notice a sharp pain in it during dinner. Weird.

Back to school tomorrow for cGMP project. I'm still researching on my part for the project with my motivation gone. I hope it will turn out to be fine tomorrow.

I shall stop procrastinating and starting doing my work!

Felicia vs Assignments!
The battle begins now!~

Thursday, December 02, 2010

Rest Day

I'm back here to blog abandoning my mountain of work that needs to be done.

It seems like my to-do list application on my i-touch has a long long list of work to be completed. Last semester in poly is really a killer to me. Making me feel so drain out. So it's time to learn to take break from the busy week.

Last thursday at this timing, I'm at west mall watching Harry Potter. (: A day off from last week's work where I've to face the computer trying to draw out P&ID aka "blue-print design" of my distillation column.

This week, my rest day is over. I'm still feeling so distracted by last night's break that I'm trying hard to concentrate on my work today.

Driving indeed is fun. Especially when you are just driving aimlessly around the road. When am I able to rent a car and start driving around like last night?

It was a great night having dinner at Newton food centre, finding Poyi's house, driving back from toa payoh to Jurong Hill and back home. =D

This is what I call a break. Where you don't think about school work at all.
Great night out. x)

I shall be back to concentrate on school work now. Driving please get out of my head! And stop tempting me to drive!

Monday, November 29, 2010

Missing Notice



This is my friend. She's missing. Any idea where is she?

Rewards are not given. But gratitude are given for information. (:

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Quote and equation

I've finished yet another novel from the library. For the time being, I shall be back to reading harry potter after watching the movie on thursday night. (:

Maybe we never know people as well as we think we do. -Run by Jeff Abbort

What you sow doesn't equals to what you reap.

Back to my busy life once again.

96 more days to holidays!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

volcano eruption

Volcanoes can be classified in active, dormant and extinct.

An active volcano is one that erupts frequently from the past till present. Most likely in future as well.

An extinct volcano is one that does not erupts in the past, present. And not likely in the future as well.

A dormant volcano is one that may not erupt in the past but it does not means that it will not erupt in future.

I think volcanoes can be use to describe human being and their temper.

Active volcano refers to person who are with fiery temper. They are most likely one who will fight for their rights, voice out their unhappiness in issues etc immediately without delay.
To me, I think I'm an active volcano to the most inner circle of my group. But then again, I'm not one who unhappy with them so I don't "erupt" in front of them.

Extinct volcano will be those easy-going people who follows about the flow. They have no temper, unhappiness with any issues. It sounds impossible but then again, perhaps they have a higher tolerance level to issues as compared to people who are like an active volcano.

Dormant volcano are those who bottled up all their unhappiness and erupt all of a sudden when one event trigger the whole eruption.
I think, I'm armoured with this appearance on the outside. Or perhaps, I'm in this category of personality.

There's no right or wrong answer to which personality is the best.

But I think I almost erupted today from the events leading to this eruption.
Darn, I hated myself for being upset over stuff that I think it's not worth for. Still, I'm feeling irritated and pissed over it.

When you know you are upset, you look for people to talk to. To end up having to hear about their problems. But who will be there just to listen to yours?

I shall be off being a superwoman for the night.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Drained

I feel tired and drained.

Physically: from all the late night trying to complete my pile of mountain but it seems to not decrease at all.

Mentally: I want a break and escape from the mountain of work with all the due dates clashing with one another in a way or another.

It's like having too much on your plate and you are trying to eat more than you can finish.
It is also like instead of juggling with 3 balls for the fun out of it, you are trying to juggle 5-8 just to entertain the tutors/lecturers. And in the end, maybe all the balls that's juggling will fall out of your hands and land all on ground.

Shall be back burry my head into my mountain of work. Lifeless....

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Battle between the Monster!

If I could run away from my pile of work, I will. Running far far far away and leave everything behind.

But I've come too far to leave everything behind which would all be wasted. Oh well. I'm just going to hang down there in mid-air.

I shall be going back to my work. Since I can't run away from it, I might as well stay and fight the monster!

Work Monster vs Felicia
The battle begins now.

Till the end, one never know who will win.

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

I love crapping with Val. I wonder why.

Haha. Shall be off to bed soon. :) Nights blogger!

Monday, November 08, 2010

Making Life Simple




Spotted this video from facebook. Life should be as simple as this. (:

Sunday, November 07, 2010

Last Semester and thoughts

No idea why. Just feel like blogging all of a sudden instead of typing my report on the Singapore Tourism Board for events tomorrow. :/

Last semester in Ngee Ann. I'm having mixed feeling over things that I've not yet done or have given up doing during the past 3 years.

Anyway, it's too late to change the fact.
Now, I just cannot wait for school to end and for me to recharge myself before carrying on to do what I want in future.

I tried and did my best to score well for the past 5 semesters. But now it's the last semester, I'm tired of trying. Somehow, I'm just tired of trying to score well for this last semester.

I'm one of those who try hard for so long gets tired of trying one day.

It's just going to be throwing my past 5 semester results into the drain when I don't do well this semester. This is definitely a disadvantage of giving up after so long.

It sounds like I'm some wasted person who will be throwing my grades into the drain. Instead of saying, "Come On! It's the last semester, I gonna keep it up!" I'm saying, "I'm tired of trying!" Oh man. What negative mentality is that of mine? -.-

Perhaps it would be better if I did not try to work hard in the first place. At least I won't be worrying about the grades that I'm going to have at the end of the semester. Whether I be the top or would I be a nobody. I just want to be average. (:

That so many other issues in my mind that I feel like blogging about. I simply don't know where and how to start from. Hmmmm...

I guess I shall end my post with this thought of mine.
I need assurance from my friends to know that I'm a friend and not a tool for their success.

Nothing personal happen. Just a thought. :)

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Failed driving officially!

It has been hmmm.... exactly 4 months and 23 days since I last drived a car when I passed my TP!

and I DROVE TODAY!

It's a horrible drive! :( feeling kind of disappointed over it. Especially it's my first drive after getting my license! Sigh..

Nevertheless, I'm grateful for Ian to trust me enough to lend me his van to drive. But I guess I'm not used to driving a european car where the direction is on the left instead of the right. I keep switching on the wiper instead. =.=

My driving skills are not up to his standard! Now, I shall aimed to drive him one day with better driving skills. That shall be my AIM!

I can do it! I can do it! One day, I will do it! :D

Writing vs Typing

I'm back into my blog since I last posted several months back. And indeed, I have once again failed to make blogging a daily habit of mine. Actually sometimes it feels good to just jot down a thought or two a day as a reflection of my own. :)

I feel like writing a letter. Be it in english or in chinese. Technology has made it so convenient that people have forgotten the beauty of just writing using a pen on paper. Perhaps I shall write a letter for myself. To Felicia in 2015? Wonder how much would I change within the next 5 years. In terms of thoughts, behaviour etc.

Would my current and only group of best friends still be my best friends? Maybe 5 years down the road, any of my friends will get married and soon I might be receiving all the news of marriage. Could it be they are all going overseas for further studies and be back to singapore in the next 5 years. Or it could be the trend of emigrating away from singapore to some other european/australian/american countries for survival?

So many different kinds of possiblities that are open for options. Hmm.. 5 years from now, If nothing goes wrong, I should be having my final year as an undergraduate? Or perhaps I've just been graduated and busy touring around the world before searching for a job and settle down to the mundane working adult life? Perhaps I won't even be going to University and I've been working since graduation.

After typing so much, I guess, I still prefer a hand written piece of journal. It's less technical, less rigid and more simplicity in a sense. Words that are typed out seems to be lacking of some sort of element. The element of giving the writer a process of thought. Using a pen and paper, you can see the number of spelling errors and how your chain of thoughts are changing as you write through all the cancellation. Whereas typing just take that chain of thought away from you. When you type or spell a word wrongly, or even deciding that this thought shouldn't be penning down at all: all you've got to do would be using a backspace button and everything would be gone without a trace. No clue about what has went through in your mind, no clue about the mistakes made. No human element in it. It's just another piece of writing on a virtual page in a virtual place.

Use of spelling checker, all spelling errors can be corrected in an instant. This is for english language. What happens to Chinese language?

Typing in chinese has allowed people to be able to recognise the chinese characters. However, without the use of computers/phone to type, how many people can actually write out chinese character without searching the dictionary or referring back to a reference?

I shall write a few hand written letters this weekend and post them out to my friends.
One, to keep in contact.
Two, to get the hang of writing again (not just on school work).
Three, for my own leisure.
Four, to add a human element into a piece of writing instead of just typing and print on paper.

Writing vs Typing. I'm just going to side the writing even though typing would be so much convenient. Because it's tooo convenient using typing that I think writing it out using pen and paper would be a good way to remind myself how fortunate we are as compared to people in the past. It's time to experience some hardship and appreciate what we had now.

Maybe in future, we are all attached to a robot who will be typing out our letters for us instead. Till the day comes, I think humans might not be able to know how to write anymore!